Chapter 5
Maine: Joyce, I’m sorry. The shop already apologized. You shouldn’t have been blamed for the dress. Please don’t think too much about it.” I read it once. Then twice. Did she mean it? Or was it just a bandage for a wound she helped create? A soft message to wash away the image of Bradley shoving me, of everyone turning their backs while I stood in shock, humiliated? Before I could decide, another message arrived. Bradley: I left the black card on the kitchen counter. Buy anything you want today since you’ll be alone for one week. I nearly laughed. This was how it always went with him. First the fury, the blame, the cruelty—and then, the guilt gift. The apology disguised as permission to spend his money. As if a new dress or a bag could undo the things he said. The things he did. I could almost hear his voice in my head: Here, buy yourself something. Now smile like a good girl. I didn’t respond. I just stared at their names—Maine and Bradley—and in one swift, final movement, I deleted both messages and blocked their numbers. Later that day, I decided to step outside. I put on the dress Bradley once said looked “too loud” and the lipstick he told me “made me look old.” I wore both. Proudly. I had a little money stashed away—hidden savings he never cared to know about. I clutched my small bag and walked into the city like I had somewhere to be, even if it was just a place where I could breathe. There was this café I had passed a hundred times before. Every time I hinted I wanted to try them, Bradley would shut it down. “Cake? Again? You already look like you’ve had enough,” he’d say, always with that half-smirk, as if it were a joke I was supposed to laugh at. But I’d seen him offer the same cake to Maine once, all sweet smiles and soft hands. I didn’t say a word back then. But today, I walked straight in and ordered the most expensive cake they had, the one with gold flakes and berries that looked like tiny rubies. I sat by the window and took a bite. It was sweet. It was light. It was mine. As I ate, I opened my phone, just to scroll, to pass the time. And that’s when I saw it—Celia’s post. One of our closest friends, or so I thought. I tapped the video. There it was. The cruise. The wedding. Bradley in a suit, Maine glowing in white. My son clapping, my family cheering. People I cooked for, cared for, bent over backwards for—all smiling like I never existed. They knew. Every single one of them knew. I watched as the video showed them toasting champagne, laughing. Bradley placing a kiss on Maine’s forehead. My father standing proudly beside them. I was the shadow they had brushed off, swept under the rug while they built their new life in plain sight. My hands trembled. The fork slipped onto the plate. My marriage was never sacred to anyone. Not even paper. Just a convenience. A placeholder. A favor until the real bride came along. I wiped my tears with the back of my hand and stood. No one chose me. Not a single soul in that room remembered who I was to them. But today, I would choose myself. I walked out of the café and straight into the boutique across the street. The kind of place I never allowed myself to enter because I thought I didn’t belong. But today, I did. A young woman greeted me at the door. “Looking for anything special, ma’am?” “Yes,” I said, steady and sure. “I want to try on a wedding dress.” Her eyebrows lifted slightly. “Your wedding?” “Yes.” My voice didn’t shake. “Mine.” She smiled politely, guiding me through rows of gowns—silks and lace and beads. I tried on a few, letting the fabric hug me where I once felt empty. And then I found it—the one. Simple, elegant, not screaming for attention, just me. I stepped in front of the mirror and stared at the reflection. I didn’t see someone broken. I didn’t see someone abandoned. I saw someone whole. I asked her to take a photo of me in the dress, and as I held the printed picture in my hands, I smiled—not for them. For me. This was my moment. I paid for the dress in cash. And as I stepped out of the boutique, I pulled out my phone and made a call I should’ve made long ago. It rang once. Twice. I took a deep breath. “Hi,” I said. “I’d like to file for divorce.” And just like that, I chose myself.