Chapter 6
The call to the lawyer was easier than I thought it would be. The words didn’t catch in my throat this time. I said them clearly: “I’d like to file for divorce.” And once I did, it was like something inside me clicked. Like I had finally turned the key to a cage I didn’t realize I’d locked myself in. I went home to an empty house. Quiet, as always, but it no longer felt suffocating. It felt like a space ready to be reclaimed. Mine, even if temporarily. I made my way to the storage room—the little dusty corner Bradley called “the junk closet.” But it wasn’t junk. Not to me. I opened the boxes one by one, gently lifting each painting like I was holding pieces of my younger self. A girl who once dreamed with colors. Who used to paint by the window with the light pouring in, humming to herself, completely unaware that her future would be silenced by a man who told her painting was a waste of time. “It won’t put food on the table, Joyce,” he’d said. “It’s useless. Focus on what matters. Be a wife.” So I stopped. I folded my dreams and hid them in these boxes, just like I hid parts of myself. But I never stopped completely. Between laundry and vacuuming, in the quiet hours before dawn, I would still paint. Sometimes with tears in my eyes, sometimes with a quiet fire in my chest. And I posted them anonymously online. Sold a few here and there. Enough to save. Enough to hope. Now, I unwrapped those canvases and laid them out on the floor, one by one. I had forgotten how beautiful they were—how alive I felt when I made them. That afternoon, I called Lorenzo. He answered on the second ring. “Joyce?” I swallowed hard. “I’m ready.” There was a pause, and then his voice lit up like fireworks. “Are you serious? Joyce, this is incredible! I’ve been waiting for this day. My gallery has the perfect space for you. Say the word, and it’s yours.” “I want it,” I said. “I’m done hiding.” After I packed and carefully delivered the best pieces to the gallery, I returned home with stained fingers and a full heart. For the first time in years, I had done something for me. Something that didn’t involve scrubbing someone else’s shoes or fixing dinner while they laughed in another room. I sat on my bed and browsed through the internet. Just killing time. Until I saw it. A post from my son. A photo. There he was—smiling beside Maine, arm casually draped over her shoulder like she was already his stepmother. My father stood behind them, Bradley beside him. A happy family photo. And I was nowhere in it. Rage prickled at the base of my neck. Not sorrow—rage. I leaned in, reading the caption: “Grateful for these people. My strongest support system.” Support system? The same people who let me rot in silence? The same people who celebrated a wedding built on betrayal? So, what am I to them? I stared at the screen and whispered to myself, “In just a few weeks… I’ll be gone. And you’ll never be able to hurt me again.” That night, I did something that would have made Bradley lose his mind. I wore the red dress he told me was “too tight, too loud, too attention-seeking.” The one I had kept hidden in the back of the closet because it made me feel beautiful. I did my makeup using the make-up I bought just today after he had given the other one to Maine. And I walked into a bar downtown. It wasn’t glamorous. But it was alive. Music buzzed softly in the air, people danced and laughed, and the scent of wine and freedom clung to the air. I sat at the bar, ordered a glass of red, and for once, I didn’t care what anyone thought. Halfway through my second sip, my phone began to ring. Unknown number. Then again. And again. I sighed and let it go to voicemail. But then the texts started pouring in. “What the hell is happening? Why aren’t you answering? Why am I blocked? Joyce, really? Are you still being dramatic? I said I was sorry. I even let you have fun—gave you freedom! What more do you want? Where the hell are you?” I stared at the screen, calm as ever. There he was again—trying to regain control. Not because he missed me, but because he couldn’t stand not having access to me. Couldn’t stand that I’d stopped dancing to his mood swings. I took another sip of wine, smirked to myself, then opened the camera. With the bar behind me—its neon signs glowing like rebellion—I snapped a photo of myself. My glass raised, a half-smile on my lips, eyes clear and untouchable. I sent it as a post, public. No tags. Just a caption: Oh, what a wonderful night to dance and drink!